Sorry for the lack of blogging lately. I’ve been busy writing essays and working away from home. I’ve also been a little uninspired so haven’t had an awful lot to say. However…
I’ve just spent a really interesting couple of days with my colleagues talking about work and faith. We spent some time considering culture and faith and mainly the question of how we ‘carry culture’ and what that culture might be.
For me that’s an interesting and difficult question. I spoke about the three of me. I’ve mentioned before how I sometimes feel a disconnect between the bits of my life.
There’s Stewart the person who lives in the world. Who used to DJ in clubs and pubs, who loves music and movies, who’s a dad and a husband.
There’s Stewart who is employed by the church. I work for a denomination I knew little about before I got the job. I feel at home there and I think it suits me. I wonder if I suit them! I also wonder how the Stewart who find faith and nourishment outside the church in all kinds of ways.
Then there is Stewart who leads worship on Sundays in a fairly traditional fashion. I try my best to talk to people in ways that bring these three areas together but sometimes that is difficult. Not conflicting really with the other two Stewarts but sometimes seemingly separate.
I know we are all different in different situations and perhaps I’m trying to make sense of all of that. But I wonder if that is the same for all of us? I know many of you who read this feel the stuggle between a sense of trying to be ‘authentic’, whatever that means, and a connection to a church which sometimes seems quite different if not distant from the other parts of your life.
So, before I go on, am I barking up a tree with more people than me hiding in the branches?
Is there more than one you? Is church the place where the different yous seem furthest apart?
How do you feel about that?